Repeat.

I have bad dreams all the time, I started having them when I was about three years old. The bad part with this isn't just that I don't end up getting nights rest. It's that they're slowly starting to get worse. Not meaning that I'm getting them all the time, but the dream itself. So, my nightmares repeat. I always seem to have the same ones over, and over again. The one that I had last night, I have about ten months ago, give or take. So they don't happen back to back.

I don't want to go into detail about this one because it involves the death of children. But what I can tell you, is how it's getting worse. There is one part where a little girl gets stabbed, and now, I'm able to fucking feel it. I felt like i was being stabbed. I KNEW it was a dream, and I can't tell you how I was able to feel it, but it scares me. Typically when people dream, the brain will cause something bad to happen in the dream (to wake them up) because the thing is happening in real life. When the little girl got stabbed in the dream, I did wake up, and I wasn't able to move, talk, or even cry. But as soon as I woke up, I passed back out, and the dream continued from where it left off.

I don't understand why this is happening, and I'm very worry. 

Bye.

So, I'm going to cut more people out of my life. I already took out a bit yesterday, but I might do some more. I'm kind of sick of feeling like a part-time friend. I know a lot of people don't really give a fuck that I feel this way, but oh well. I just don't feel needed by people anymore. But you know, that's the fucked up part. People only seem to fucking talk to me when THEY have some kind of problem. So what's the point in keeping anyone around if they don't give a damn about me.? I just wish someone would think 'hey, I wonder how Britanie is going.' But no one ever does. But here I am, worried about fucking everyone.

Not anymore, I'm done.

Good fucking bye.