Dreams.

I have a very weird problem when it comes to my sleeping behavior. For starters, no matter how many hours of sleep I get, I'm still tired. Now, I know some other people that have this problem. This isn't the weird part however. There would be some nights when my mother would have to shake me awake because I would stop breathing in my sleep. On top of the fact that some night I'll sleep with my eyes open. I never understood why I would do these things.

I also have really realistic dreams. There's been some dreams that I always have over and over again. It's been happening for years. There's this one dream that I would always get depressed about when I would wake from it. I'd be walking in this forest in a dark blue dress, and it was beautiful. The trees we're crystal white, and hallow. The dirt was dark, and there was white stones everywhere. I remember walking along a river till I hear a giggle coming from behind one of the bigger trees. I walk over to see who was behind the tree, and it turns out to be myself. She stands there in a long flowing white dress, without any shoes. Smiling and giggling at me. She (the other me) would then hold me in her arms.

Now I have this dream once every year or so. 

I never understood why I get so happy when I would have this dream. I just feel so.. happy. Loving myself is one thing, but how she acted was odd. Almost motherly. I just don't know.

It's been almost a year.

I'm hoping to get a little more into the dream next time.